Diriku oh, Diriku…

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Apa yang kau cari wahai diriku?
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Unanswered, Searching, still ..

Still searching to Answer the questions..

It’s been two months already…
And, everything still the same..
There are no events happened,
no exciting experienced, and no story to be told.

Since that “October, 25” day, I’ve been struggling a lot,
to find my destiny, my path, my adventure,
my dream, my hope, and my life…
You know, to define “a real life” means.
It’s just, still unknown and hidden..

Yeah, I know…
Like I always believe,
Sometimes the best way to move into “the unknown”,
is to take familiar steps, small steps…
To do ordinary things to deal with something that is in no way ordinary.
Because, familiar things just let me to pretend
that I’m not moving into unfamiliar territory. .

I’ve tried to take those small familiar steps.
And to be honest,
This is the times that what I need is a piece of how things used to be.
“Things” that used to be going well with my plan and with “what I want”…

We’re always going someplace new, all the time, right..??
But, for me, it’s still unanswered question.
Where is that “someplace new”..??

Seether – Rise Above This



Take the light and darken everything around me,
Call the clouds, and listen closely, I’m lost without you.


Call your name everyday,
When I feel so helpless.
I’ve fallen down, but I’ll rise above this (rise above this).


Hate your mind, regrets are better left unspoken.
For all we know this void will grow,
An everything’s in vain, distressing you though it leaves me open,
Feels so right that I’ll end this all before it gets me.

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MY MOVIE COLLECTION – How I Met Your Mother

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Film serial ini adalah salah satu koleksi awak yang sangat berharga..
Nonton berulang-ulang pun, tetep awak ketawa, gak pernah kerasa garing.
Cocok bangetlah jadi selingan di tengah pusingnya kepala awak nyari2 kerja, ha3..

Sebenarnya, ni serial idenya sederhana banget kok.
Tapi, sangat-sangat bermakna… Deep lah maknanya.
Ya, awak memang suka kesederhanaan yang bermakna (cieee..).

Banyak sisi-sisi kehidupan sehari-hari yang ditampilkan di sini.
Habis nonton, pikiran awak jadi banyak terbuka..
Mengandung “message” yang bagus lah pokok-e.

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Way Back Into Love…

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Yup, sometimes, it’s always appear the question in my mind…
Where is the love that I’ve been wanted..??
A love of a lifetime..Am I still too young for it..??
Or, is it still not the right time..???

When I have this moment of missing/lonely,
I usually listen this song for quite a few times..
Yeah, It just for reminds me, that there will be “her” for me someday..

This song is a soundtrack for Music & Lyrics movie..
A quite good comedy-romance movie though…
And, the song, it’s really fit into the story..
And, for some moment, it fits me too..

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Mencintai semampuku

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Sebuah doa yang sangat menyentuh..
Pertama kali membacanya, air mata awak menetes tak terasa..
Berkali-kali pun awak baca setelah itu, selalu memberi kesejukan bagi hati..

Tuhanku,
Aku masih ingat, saat pertama dulu aku belajar mencintaiMu…
Lembar demi lembar kitab kupelajari…
Untai demi untai kata para ustadz kuresapi…
Tentang cinta para nabi,
Tentang kasih para sahabat,
Tentang mahabbah para sufi,
Tentang kerinduan para syuhada..


Tapi Rabbii,
Berbilang detik, menit, jam, hari, pekan, bulan dan kemudian tahun berlalu…
Aku sangat jauh dari mencintaiMu dengan cinta yang paling utama itu, Ya Rabb..


Allahu Rahiim, Ilaahi Rabbii,
Perkenankanlah aku mencintaiMu Sebisaku
Dengan segala kelemahanku

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Nine Words Women Use…

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I don’t know if it’s true or not…
I’ve read it from various source, and it seems funny to read it (he3…)

1.) Fine
This is the word women use to end an argument
when they are “Right” and you need to shut up !!

2.) Five Minutes
If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour.
Five minutes is only “five minutes” if you have just
been given five more Minutes to watch the game
before helping around the house..

3.) Nothing
This is the calm before the storm.
This means something, And you should be on your toes.
Arguments that begin with “nothing” Usually end in “fine” – #1.

4.) Go Ahead
This is a dare, not permission. Don’t Do It!

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October 25..The Graduation…

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Wow.. What can I say..???
Finally, I’ve graduated…
Somehow, still I can’t believe it that I can make it..
It’s the happiest moment of my life so far..
The moment that I’ve been dreaming since a long time ago..

Do you know, what kind of moment that makes it perfect..??
For parents,
To see their kids to graduate is priceless moments..
Try to look into your parent’s eyes in that day,
you’ll just understand their feelings…
it’s so full of proud, so happy, and so thankful…
That is one of the best present that I can give to my mom and my dad..

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Jimmy Eat World – Hear You Me (from One Tree Hill Best Moment)

I still remember about the moment of this song.
The moment from the movie that has taken this song for its soundtrack.
Do you know what movie..?? It’s in One Tree Hill..
The capturing moment with this song was so perfect, deep, and also touching.

For an example,
It’s capturing a sad moment between Andy and Lucas’s mom..
She said,”I love you Andy, I do..”
Then, Andy answered, ” I love you too Karen, but somehow,
it’s just doesn’t seem to be enough for you
..”

And, to remember this moment of this movie,
I remember the best quote that makes realize about myself too…

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A TRUE LOVE SYSTEM (maybe..)

It’s fun actually, to define a true love system based on alphabet.
At least, I can imagine what the true love is from this system.. Eventhough just for fun, but I hope, I can get it someday..

(A)ccept her as who she is, and only as who she is

(B)elieves each other

(C)alls sometimes, even just to say “Hi”

(D)oesn’t give up on her, and she doesn’t give up on me too

(E)nvision the whole of me (even the unfinished parts)

(F)orgives each other’s mistakes

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