This year have made me understand better than before,
how infinitely rich and beautiful life is in every way,
and that so many things that one goes worrying about,
are of no importance whatsoever…
I’ve been waiting for this phase in my life to begin,
a phase where I can just feel secure to be myself..
Here we go, the september almost over. This month, I’ve been focused to re-think about everything that is important to me, slightly quiet and enjoy the silence faraway from others, and paying less attention to what those around me are saying.
You see, within this year, I’ve tried hard to improve my sense for self-acceptance and be a friend to myself. To be honest, since few years ago, I used to be living on fear & wondering whether I’ll be able to achieve something big or not. Of course, when you do something out of fear, it will always result in failure.
I do remember the day when I felt a lot of doubt and insecure, I used to seek for the opinions of others before proceeding. It’s like I was ready to be lead by anyone who appears to know more than they do. At the time, I had no sense that I could control my path through life. I would simply wait for things to happen and then react to them.
But since I’ve became a friend to myself, and practicing the self acceptance, then I got those sense of purpose. The first step is to openly accept where you are right now, whether you feel good about it or not. Because, you won’t get any stronger until you accept where or who you are right now.
The main question is, “Do you want sympathy for creating what you don’t want, or do you want congratulations for creating what you do want?”
Face My Own Fears
Eventually, I understand that If I was going to get anywhere, I had to do something about it, I had to stop to worry much, and I have to face my fears. My way of thinking was that, I’ll never achieve somethings matters until I can face my fears. And indeed, when I do something with faith, it will result in success. Although, it’s not something that will happen overnight.
You know, when I stop listening to others and start making my own choices, without worrying for “editing” my behaviour to impress others, and just simply be “who I am”, I notice a strange phenomena: I gain more and more clarity and confident. People can feel and see my sense of purpose, security and independence, and they even seek some sort of guidance how I can be able to pull all of these achievements.
Emotional Security comes from Clarity
I do realize now, the truth is that nothing outside of ourself can give us a sense of security, nothing can make us secure except ourself. I mean, security comes from clarity. When I know exactly what I want and persistently reach for my goals without looking for excuses, put all “victims” mentality behind, my sense of security grows.
Today, It surprises me how many people search for security everywhere but inside themselves. They look for high-paying jobs, or loyal partners, or sometimes putting a lot of photos of their daily “cool” life in social media, or safer neighbourhoods, hoping that this will bring them the sense of security and assurance they seek for.
You see, to gain security, you need to have a sense of purpose. This comes when you have a clear goal in mind. People with no goals feel that there is nothing in this world that is worth pursuing. They get interested in something and after some time they feel bored and start something new. They have no direction and therefore they cannot progress or improve themselves.
When I have a firm goal in place and I keep thinking about it every day, I’m sure that my subconscious mind starts directing me to the achievement of the goal. I start getting ideas, and in result, I’m feeling more secure, assured and self-confident. I get motivated to complete large projects, and I just have more than enough energy to do what it takes, and just putting all of bad pieces on the floor without even complaint to it.
Today, when I wake up in the morning, I do feel great and exciting, because there are so many new things happening, and a definite goal I strive to achieve is reached. And the result, I become feel secure. When I take control of myself, everything else just fall into place…