Wondering, Where’ll It be Heading..??

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Yeah, I know, I’m kind of reach my low points in this time.
And, it makes me felt angry, and at the same time, also, sad..
But, last night, in Qiyamullail time, I was questioning myself.
What actually did make me feel angry, dissappoint, or even sad?
Job..?? Girl..?? Friends..?? or maybe, “stupid” football..??

Then I realized, none of all that matters.
It’s just because all of my expectation or maybe my ambition.
And, of course, I’m afraid to fail.

When I was a little, I liked to think that I knew everything,
but the last thing I really wanted, was to know too much.
What I really want was for grown-ups to make the world a safe place
where all my dreams can come true..
And when I was a kid, it didn’t seem like a lot to ask..

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Meningkatkan Performa PC lewat Ngedit Registry (1st)

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Dari pengalaman awak menggunakan kompie ya,
Dalam beberapa jangka waktu pemakaian,
masuk ke dalam Windows kok makin lama makin susah ya..???
Jadi ngebutuhin waktu tambahan, gak seperti biasanya.
Trus, ngebuka program, juga rasanya kok makin lemot..???

Nah, kalo ngalamin yang gitu-gitu, apa harus install ulang Windows lagi?
Wah, nggak perlu seekstrim itu sebenarnya.

Dari sepengetahuan awak, ada beberapa hal sederhana yang dapat kita lakukan, diantaranya adalah :
(SOTOY mode : ON..hehehe)

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Nada Surf – Inside of Love

Well, if you watched How I Met Your Mother 1st season,
You’ll know this beautiful song…
I’ve got the video from youtube,
it was capturing perfect moments from this song in the serial movie…

And, since I always like alternative music, of course this one also alternative..

Intro: A  Dsus2
Chorus :
A  E   (F) F#m  Bm  D
Bridge : A  E   (F) Bm  F#m  D


Watching terrible TV, It kills all thought
Getting spacier than, an astronaut…


Making out with people, I hardly know or like
I can’t believe what I do, late at night…

Chorus:
I wanna know what it’s like, on the inside of love
I’m standing at the gates, I see the beauty above…

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It’s just sometimes…


Sometimes, we’re tending to judge other’s choice,
without seeing their view or their condition for possible reason…

Sometimes, we’re often thinking only others that is wrong,
just based on our personal preference..
And forgot, perhaps, they have more wisdom than us..

Sometimes, when we make a mistake, we said that is “sorry”,
And not noticed, if others make a mistake, we said they’re fool..

Sometimes, we remember people just based on a single mistake,
And forgot them based on their many good things..

Sometimes, We’re proud to watch “the movie” of our wonderful achievement,
and forgot that the only people that watched is just ourself..

Then, I realized that I can find the good in everybody,
if I just give them a chance, the benefit of the doubt..

Because, Sometimes people dissapoint you, Sometimes they surprise you…
But, you never really get to know them until you listen for what’s in their hearts..

Just in My Mind, though…

Wondering Alone...

People are lonely in this world for lots of different reason.
Some people have something in their disposition.
Maybe they were just born too mean,
or maybe they were born too tender…

But, most people are brought to where they are
by circumstance, by calamity, or a broken heart,
or something else happening in their lives
that wasn’t anything they planned on..

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A7F – Dear God


This song is always be “my friends”,
especially when I was finishing my bachelor thesis a few months ago…

Intro:  F-C-Dm-Am-B-F-C

F        C             Dm                 Am
A lonely road, crossed another cold state line,
Bb                F            C
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find,
F          C           Dm                 Am
While I recall all the words you spoke to me,
Bb                  F
Can’t help but wish that I was there,
C
Back where I’d love to be, oh yeah

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Diriku oh, Diriku…

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Apa yang kau cari wahai diriku?
Bukankah sudah banyak nikmat yang ditampakkan
Bukankah sudah banyak pelajaran diajarkan
Bukankah sudah banyak kegelisahan dihiburkan
Bukankah sudah banyak keraguan yang dinyatakan

Apa lagi yang kau harapkan wahai nafsuku?
Bukankah sudah begitu banyak kesia-siaan kau tawarkan
Bukankah sudah banyak celah kemaksiatan kau longgarkan
Bukankah sudah begitu banyak keraguan kau persembahkan
Bukankah sudah begitu banyak kegelapan kau hamparkan

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Unanswered, Searching, still ..

Still searching to Answer the questions..

It’s been two months already…
And, everything still the same..
There are no events happened,
no exciting experienced, and no story to be told.

Since that “October, 25” day, I’ve been struggling a lot,
to find my destiny, my path, my adventure,
my dream, my hope, and my life…
You know, to define “a real life” means.
It’s just, still unknown and hidden..

Yeah, I know…
Like I always believe,
Sometimes the best way to move into “the unknown”,
is to take familiar steps, small steps…
To do ordinary things to deal with something that is in no way ordinary.
Because, familiar things just let me to pretend
that I’m not moving into unfamiliar territory. .

I’ve tried to take those small familiar steps.
And to be honest,
This is the times that what I need is a piece of how things used to be.
“Things” that used to be going well with my plan and with “what I want”…

We’re always going someplace new, all the time, right..??
But, for me, it’s still unanswered question.
Where is that “someplace new”..??

Seether – Rise Above This



Take the light and darken everything around me,
Call the clouds, and listen closely, I’m lost without you.


Call your name everyday,
When I feel so helpless.
I’ve fallen down, but I’ll rise above this (rise above this).


Hate your mind, regrets are better left unspoken.
For all we know this void will grow,
An everything’s in vain, distressing you though it leaves me open,
Feels so right that I’ll end this all before it gets me.

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MY MOVIE COLLECTION – How I Met Your Mother

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Film serial ini adalah salah satu koleksi awak yang sangat berharga..
Nonton berulang-ulang pun, tetep awak ketawa, gak pernah kerasa garing.
Cocok bangetlah jadi selingan di tengah pusingnya kepala awak nyari2 kerja, ha3..

Sebenarnya, ni serial idenya sederhana banget kok.
Tapi, sangat-sangat bermakna… Deep lah maknanya.
Ya, awak memang suka kesederhanaan yang bermakna (cieee..).

Banyak sisi-sisi kehidupan sehari-hari yang ditampilkan di sini.
Habis nonton, pikiran awak jadi banyak terbuka..
Mengandung “message” yang bagus lah pokok-e.

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