If..


by : Rudyard Kipling

If you can keep your head when all about you,
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you
But make allowance for their doubting too,
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don’t deal in lies,
Or being hated, don’t give way to hating,
And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise..

If you can dream–and not make dreams your master,
If you can think–and not make thoughts your aim,
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same,
If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build ‘em up with worn-out tools..

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss,
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: “Hold on!”

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings–nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much,
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,
And–which is more–you’ll be a Man, my son!

Being Good Enough..??

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A few days ago, my college friends celebrated the graduation. (Chat from yahoo messenger) The first question he asked to me, was the same “old” question for young professional (fresh graduate), “Am I really good enough for a real job”..?? Yep, almost the same question while I was fresh graduate too.

You see, ever since we were young, we’ve been taught that we aren’t good enough. Teachers have highlighted our mistakes with red pens and parents have wished we would’ve been better. It’s easy to assume that you don’t have any “value”, but you know what, you do, everybody do. Since I’m sure that every person have always something to offer.

Basically, the feelings of “not being good enough” are just because We tend to judge ourselves against another standard. This standard is often a comparison between what we ‘know’ about ourselves and what we ‘believe’ about the other. We end up seeing ‘the yuck’ of our own lives, but fail to see it in the other.

Other caused are the need of being perfect to become Good Enough” for the job, as We’ve imagined (I’ve been there). But, the thing is, We are not perfect. I am not perfect. Bill Gates is not perfect. Stephen King is not perfect. Your favorite authors are not perfect. Perfection is an idea, but not reality.

Just throw-up those mind-set and you’ll see your talent & what makes you an unique candidate for the job.

Please note that perfection is boring. No one wants to read about a perfect character, with a perfect life, and perfect job, and perfect family. The same goes for real life, right? 🙂

“That” Subject..

 

When you’ve already grown-up,
have graduated from college & have a stable job,
then, things such as love, serious relationship, and (even) marriage,
slowly starting to appear on the surface that hard to be ignored..


You know, When you’re single, and your friends or people that closed on your life start to get married, every wedding invitation presents a strange moment of self-evaluation. What it’s really asking is, “Where do you see yourself..??” The thing is, at this age, love is not supposed for just another “trial & error”, it just has to be really, really “right”, I mean, “the one”. And, to get that, it’s hard, honestly.. 🙂

Well, I know relationships aren’t easy, they’re “hard work”. It’s about compromise, growing together, and other crap list continued. But if it’s the right person, then it’s gonna be just easy. Looking at her and knowing she’s all I really want out of life, that should be the easiest thing in the world. Because, the best relationships are the ones that just come naturally. Have natural fun, easy, and simple, or uncomplicated. And, if it’s not like that, then it’s just not meant to be..

Because, if it’s too complicated, maybe it means that we don’t connect on fundamental levels. Then, of course there will be “break-up” & “drama” phase. And funny thing about break-up, there is no good way. Sometimes, no matter how hard we try to do the right thing for break-up, there is always one side that have to face & deal with “humiliation”..

The point is, I’ve felt enough for “trial & error” phase. Because, I think I don’t want to just wasting my time, my energy, and of course my heart, to a girl that literally will not meant to be with me. What is the point of climbing a ladder if it’s leaning against “the wrong wall”, right..??

I know that odds are, She’s not gonna magically walk through that door, but this seems as nice a spot as any to just, sit and wait for a while, preparing myself on any side. Right now, I don’t know who she is, or, where or when We will meet. But, I think for the most part in my life, ultimately, I will only see what I want to see, when I’m ready to see it. And that’s all I’m gonna say to this very own subject… 🙂

The New Chapter of Moving Forward


It’s funny, sometimes I walk into a place I’ve never been before,
but I get the feeling that I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be.
So, never underestimate the power of destiny.
Because when I least expect it, suddenly my whole life change 180 degree..


Currently, I’m working for my new job, new place, new “direction”, and with a new people. A job that in my believe is the job that all engineer dream about. A job that provide me an opportunity to have a real career path, to grow, to learn, and also going overseas. Working in one of the biggest company in the world for Oil & Gas industry..

When you’re pushing adulthood, however, It’s easy to say you’re going to do something. It’s easy to be eager with words. Actions, actually, are much harder. You see, It’s almost 1,5 years of my graduation day from college, and living in a real world, working in the dynamism of Project. But, after involved on that job for almost 1,5 years, I can understand that I can’t spent my whole life living like that.

You see, of course there is a risk, still. I know, it’s really a big step that I’ve made for my career. This year will probably be one of my hardest,”and I know, once I’ve tasted this, I can’t turn back”, especially back to Project. There’s this thing about risks though, It’s easy to sign up, but it’s the follow-through that decides your character. So, I would like to focus for an opportunity of a lifetime like this, to pass the challenge of transitioning.

Because, really, given the opportunity to completely change your whole life, what you’re gonna do..?? That night, my father said to me, “Being normal gets you a middle-class life. It’s fifth place, and you know you want to be in first. All successful people then are understandably eccentric. They take risks that normal people wouldn’t.”

And, that’s the moment, see. The moment where I face all my fears in doubting myself  “can I answer the challenge or not”, something like that. Or the moment to decide whether I’m going to smile or freak-out, move forward or turn back.

And in case you were wondering… I jumped..!!! With a smile on my face.. All I hope, taking this chance means, I’ve arrived in my “destination”. Welcome to a new world, Met.. 🙂

The Changes..

Is every moment of our lives built into us before we’re born?
If it is, does that make us less responsible for the things we do?
Or is the responsibility built in too?

~Taken

I don’t know..
As I grow up, lots of things change.
More responsibilities, more issues to deal with.
There are no excuses for mistakes I make,
I’m responsible for my decisions, and it influence not just my life.
That makes things more complicated and less enjoyable..

I laugh less, I enjoy less, I forget to call people I care about.
Sometimes, I pretend to be too busy.
It is tougher to believe. Tougher to dream.
It is tougher to be just happy. Especially when I want more from life..

You see, sometimes, The time felt changing too.
24 hours are not enough anymore.
I have to run somewhere.
To fix this, to clear that, to “fight”, to argue,
to prove myself right, to learn new stuff,
to earn more money, to work more.
Deprived of the privilege to actually enjoy life..

I have a luggage of sad memories, happy memories too,
broken promises, lost friendships, and missed opportunities.
I know what it is like to believe, to hope, to dream.
But I also know how it feels when every promise,
every feeling, every dream would break into pieces.

I don’t know..
I just…forget what it means to be real.
To be human, to be myself.
And, I just felt that I’m not the same anymore..

Computer Gender : Male or Female?

I got this joke from several source, and I found that is intelligently funny.. So, I would like to share it here for you.. No offense, just for fun only..

One puzzled student asked, “What gender is the computer?” The teacher did not know, and the word wasn’t in her dictionary. So for fun she split the class into two groups, appropriately enough by gender, and asked them to decide whether “computer” should be a “male” or “female” noun. Both groups were required to give reasons for their recommendation.

The men’s group decided that computers should definitely be of the feminine gender, because :

Reasons to believe computers are female:

  1. No one but the Creator understands their internal logic.
  2. The native language they use to communicate with other computers is incomprehensible to everyone else.
  3. The message “Bad command or file name” is about as informative as, “If you don’t know why I’m mad at you, then I’m certainly not going to tell you”.
  4. Even your smallest mistakes are stored in long-term memory for later retrieval.
  5. Beauty is only shell deep.
  6. Always turning simple statements into big productions.
  7. Small-talk is very important.
  8. You do the same thing for years, and suddenly it’s wrong.
  9. Miss a period and they go wild..!!!
  10. As soon as you make a commitment to one, you find yourself spending half your paycheck on accessories for it.

The women’s group, however, concluded that computers should be male gender, because:

Reasons to believe computers are male:

  1. They have a lot of “data”, but are still “clueless”.
  2. They are supposed to help you solve problems, but half the time, they ARE the problem.
  3. They look nice and shiny until you bring them home.
  4. As soon as you commit to one you realize that, if you had waited a little longer, you could have obtained a better model.
  5. The best part of having either one is the games you can play.
  6. They’ll do whatever you say if you push the right buttons.

Quite amazing, right..?? What do you think..?? 🙂

Love Spit Love – Am I Wrong?

I’ve been listening for this song for quite a while for now. And, I really feel that I can relate closely with it. I think this song is a sad song, a bittersweet song, but it’s also a little optimistic. He’s letting go of something that needs to be let go of, it seems. And, he’s accepted that it’s over, it’s for the best. But, it’s still sad to have to leave it. Right? Am I close? or, Am I wrong?

I mean, it is about someone who is confused with life. This person is turning away from what they once believed in and trying to find new meaning in life. Well, It focuses on the uncertainty that we all feel sometimes.. The lyrics are quite powerful, such as : “Lay the blame on luck”, “You let life get in your way..”, etc. I think, We’ve ever done that in our life, don’t we..?? And, not to mention that the ballads melody is totally addictive..!!

When I hear this, my mind keep telling myself trying not to hold on to long, that can leave deep scars, that may not heal. Try to be strong for yourself, cause I am worth it. What I’ve been going through right now (whether career terms, love, etc), I know that these will all make sense some day..

Goodbye, lay the blame on luck..
Goodbye, Lay the blame on luck..
Goodbye, Lay the blame on luck..

Yep, Enjoy the song & video below.. Although, the song itself is way better from the video, but I hope you can enjoy it as well as me.. 🙂

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A Reflection of Hope & Effort

Well, currently I’m in a really daring adventure month. Going from one opportunity to another opportunity and from one city to another city. Although I’m enjoying the challenge to experience “selling” my resume to someone else, but now, it strike my mind. Honestly, I just have a feeling that “selling” myself is kind of tough, quite tricky, and also can be brutal.

You know, still I’m a normal guy. That’s why it got me thinking. Between the rejections, the unanswered phone calls or unreturned emails, it’s making me to take it personally, kind of felt giving up altogether, and even worse, assume that they are “right” and I am “wrong” when my efforts go unrewarded.

Now, particularly in the face of rejection, I’m slightly starting to lose faith, and too many “no” sends me running for the bubble bath, where I sit and let the doubt creep in. “Maybe I’m in the wrong business, “Maybe I’m going for a job that’s just way too competitive,” or ” Maybe I’m a total idiot for thinking this would ever work out at all,” I wonder.

But, complaining will just make things worse, right..??

Call me the crazy optimist, but I’d like to think that most of us won’t let a few measly rejections get in the way of pursuing an opportunity that really matters to us, and that there really is room at the top for more than one. If you’re in agreement, then we’ve got to believe in ourselves like never before, rather than feel like a victim of circumstances.

You’ve heard it before, but allow me to repeat this obvious truth: “If I don’t believe in myself, then who will..??” So, now is really not the good time for give up..

I’m writing this article just to renew my confidence, you know..
As a reflection about what I’m going through right now, about my Hope & Effort..
After all, one more “no” is closer to a “yes”, I hope… 🙂

It’s Called, Dreams

This week, I’m kind of back to “square one” in order to pursuit what I want. And on this week, I can feel that life is an amazing thing. Why? Well, try to round the Moon clockwise, and whether it is 1950, 2010 or the year 3009, pretty much life is same. Yes, technology changes, lifestyles & types of jobs may change, but overall life is same.

It’s all about to make a so called “dreams” come true.

In My Humble Opinion, some people see life as a big test, others see life as something to experience, enjoy and learn from. Whatever you view life as, I’m sure that there is one aspect that keeps you alive, and that is your dreams.

You see, so many people fail in life because they are happily sailing along, thinking they are headed somewhere, but the road of life has a bend in the road. Instead of adjusting, people smack bang into the wall. From there they get off the high way, and float. Then, they tend to agree with parents that life is hard, and there is no point to anything!

I’ve met some people that give up trying. This is unfortunate but it happens in many cases. After all that is life, and if you are to grow in life, you have to have a bit of stress! As the saying goes, if it doesn’t “kill” you, it can only make you stronger!

A dream is essential, and without it, people perish. Look around and you will see this true. I have found that a lot of people dream, they may even try. But what happens? They try and they meet failure on first attempt, so they stop trying. Another tries a bit more, and failure after failure, they are knocked out of the game.

In my personal story, I’ve tried so hard to make all my dreams come true. Going from one opportunity to another opportunity. And honestly, I’ve experienced the fail, a lot.

But, I do believe,
that my life is defined by its opportunities, even the ones I miss
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And, I won’t give up, because
I want to prove to myself,
that I can learn how to dance through life on difficult times..

The Story is Not Over Yet..

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What is the purpose of Life..?? I don’t know the answer for that honestly.
What is the purpose of  MY LIFE.??
Well this is an entirely different query altogether,
and this question does have an answer.
But, I don’t want to make you boring with my life purpose story.
Instead, I just want to tell you about the perspective..

I guess, the one size fits all reason for me, being here is,
to learn, to grow in my understanding of myself – .

The lessons I live through are sometimes quite challenging.
I know it’s probably not a revelation that growing-up does have its pains.
But I do understand that there is never any reason for me to be discouraged.
Today’s trials are destined to be tomorrow’s enlightenments.
Difficult situations arise in my experience
to either make me aware of my strengths,
or to inspire me to walk in a new direction…

Well now,
I find myself feeling overwhelmed by the daunting circumstances in my life.
But, this is the time to stop, take a breath, step back within myself
and just remember that this story I’m living in,
in this moment is far from over yet.
There is indeed much more to come, many more moments to experience.
What I’m going through now is only one scene of a much bigger storyline.
And there will be more to see if I just keep moving. Move through it…

Life’s little stings,
which are meant to motivate my spiritual growth,
don’t usually hurt as bad as we ultimately make it hurt for ourselves
by refusing to let go of the thing that is stinging us.
The pain I’ve suffered will move when I move, when I stop holding onto it.
When I resolve to go forward and actually see how the story I’m living evolves from the mess it may seem to be now…

So, I don’t want to hit the pause during this time,
because I want to watch the rest of the story of my life unfold.
Hope feeds on motion.
So keep it moving, because The story is not over yet