If..


by : Rudyard Kipling

If you can keep your head when all about you,
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you
But make allowance for their doubting too,
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don’t deal in lies,
Or being hated, don’t give way to hating,
And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise..

If you can dream–and not make dreams your master,
If you can think–and not make thoughts your aim,
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same,
If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build ‘em up with worn-out tools..

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss,
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: “Hold on!”

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings–nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much,
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,
And–which is more–you’ll be a Man, my son!

“That” Subject..

 

When you’ve already grown-up,
have graduated from college & have a stable job,
then, things such as love, serious relationship, and (even) marriage,
slowly starting to appear on the surface that hard to be ignored..


You know, When you’re single, and your friends or people that closed on your life start to get married, every wedding invitation presents a strange moment of self-evaluation. What it’s really asking is, “Where do you see yourself..??” The thing is, at this age, love is not supposed for just another “trial & error”, it just has to be really, really “right”, I mean, “the one”. And, to get that, it’s hard, honestly.. 🙂

Well, I know relationships aren’t easy, they’re “hard work”. It’s about compromise, growing together, and other crap list continued. But if it’s the right person, then it’s gonna be just easy. Looking at her and knowing she’s all I really want out of life, that should be the easiest thing in the world. Because, the best relationships are the ones that just come naturally. Have natural fun, easy, and simple, or uncomplicated. And, if it’s not like that, then it’s just not meant to be..

Because, if it’s too complicated, maybe it means that we don’t connect on fundamental levels. Then, of course there will be “break-up” & “drama” phase. And funny thing about break-up, there is no good way. Sometimes, no matter how hard we try to do the right thing for break-up, there is always one side that have to face & deal with “humiliation”..

The point is, I’ve felt enough for “trial & error” phase. Because, I think I don’t want to just wasting my time, my energy, and of course my heart, to a girl that literally will not meant to be with me. What is the point of climbing a ladder if it’s leaning against “the wrong wall”, right..??

I know that odds are, She’s not gonna magically walk through that door, but this seems as nice a spot as any to just, sit and wait for a while, preparing myself on any side. Right now, I don’t know who she is, or, where or when We will meet. But, I think for the most part in my life, ultimately, I will only see what I want to see, when I’m ready to see it. And that’s all I’m gonna say to this very own subject… 🙂

The New Chapter of Moving Forward


It’s funny, sometimes I walk into a place I’ve never been before,
but I get the feeling that I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be.
So, never underestimate the power of destiny.
Because when I least expect it, suddenly my whole life change 180 degree..


Currently, I’m working for my new job, new place, new “direction”, and with a new people. A job that in my believe is the job that all engineer dream about. A job that provide me an opportunity to have a real career path, to grow, to learn, and also going overseas. Working in one of the biggest company in the world for Oil & Gas industry..

When you’re pushing adulthood, however, It’s easy to say you’re going to do something. It’s easy to be eager with words. Actions, actually, are much harder. You see, It’s almost 1,5 years of my graduation day from college, and living in a real world, working in the dynamism of Project. But, after involved on that job for almost 1,5 years, I can understand that I can’t spent my whole life living like that.

You see, of course there is a risk, still. I know, it’s really a big step that I’ve made for my career. This year will probably be one of my hardest,”and I know, once I’ve tasted this, I can’t turn back”, especially back to Project. There’s this thing about risks though, It’s easy to sign up, but it’s the follow-through that decides your character. So, I would like to focus for an opportunity of a lifetime like this, to pass the challenge of transitioning.

Because, really, given the opportunity to completely change your whole life, what you’re gonna do..?? That night, my father said to me, “Being normal gets you a middle-class life. It’s fifth place, and you know you want to be in first. All successful people then are understandably eccentric. They take risks that normal people wouldn’t.”

And, that’s the moment, see. The moment where I face all my fears in doubting myself  “can I answer the challenge or not”, something like that. Or the moment to decide whether I’m going to smile or freak-out, move forward or turn back.

And in case you were wondering… I jumped..!!! With a smile on my face.. All I hope, taking this chance means, I’ve arrived in my “destination”. Welcome to a new world, Met.. 🙂

Love Spit Love – Am I Wrong?

I’ve been listening for this song for quite a while for now. And, I really feel that I can relate closely with it. I think this song is a sad song, a bittersweet song, but it’s also a little optimistic. He’s letting go of something that needs to be let go of, it seems. And, he’s accepted that it’s over, it’s for the best. But, it’s still sad to have to leave it. Right? Am I close? or, Am I wrong?

I mean, it is about someone who is confused with life. This person is turning away from what they once believed in and trying to find new meaning in life. Well, It focuses on the uncertainty that we all feel sometimes.. The lyrics are quite powerful, such as : “Lay the blame on luck”, “You let life get in your way..”, etc. I think, We’ve ever done that in our life, don’t we..?? And, not to mention that the ballads melody is totally addictive..!!

When I hear this, my mind keep telling myself trying not to hold on to long, that can leave deep scars, that may not heal. Try to be strong for yourself, cause I am worth it. What I’ve been going through right now (whether career terms, love, etc), I know that these will all make sense some day..

Goodbye, lay the blame on luck..
Goodbye, Lay the blame on luck..
Goodbye, Lay the blame on luck..

Yep, Enjoy the song & video below.. Although, the song itself is way better from the video, but I hope you can enjoy it as well as me.. 🙂

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A Reflection of Hope & Effort

Well, currently I’m in a really daring adventure month. Going from one opportunity to another opportunity and from one city to another city. Although I’m enjoying the challenge to experience “selling” my resume to someone else, but now, it strike my mind. Honestly, I just have a feeling that “selling” myself is kind of tough, quite tricky, and also can be brutal.

You know, still I’m a normal guy. That’s why it got me thinking. Between the rejections, the unanswered phone calls or unreturned emails, it’s making me to take it personally, kind of felt giving up altogether, and even worse, assume that they are “right” and I am “wrong” when my efforts go unrewarded.

Now, particularly in the face of rejection, I’m slightly starting to lose faith, and too many “no” sends me running for the bubble bath, where I sit and let the doubt creep in. “Maybe I’m in the wrong business, “Maybe I’m going for a job that’s just way too competitive,” or ” Maybe I’m a total idiot for thinking this would ever work out at all,” I wonder.

But, complaining will just make things worse, right..??

Call me the crazy optimist, but I’d like to think that most of us won’t let a few measly rejections get in the way of pursuing an opportunity that really matters to us, and that there really is room at the top for more than one. If you’re in agreement, then we’ve got to believe in ourselves like never before, rather than feel like a victim of circumstances.

You’ve heard it before, but allow me to repeat this obvious truth: “If I don’t believe in myself, then who will..??” So, now is really not the good time for give up..

I’m writing this article just to renew my confidence, you know..
As a reflection about what I’m going through right now, about my Hope & Effort..
After all, one more “no” is closer to a “yes”, I hope… 🙂

October 25..The Graduation…

Foto Wisuda Bareng

Wow.. What can I say..???
Finally, I’ve graduated…
Somehow, still I can’t believe it that I can make it..
It’s the happiest moment of my life so far..
The moment that I’ve been dreaming since a long time ago..

Do you know, what kind of moment that makes it perfect..??
For parents,
To see their kids to graduate is priceless moments..
Try to look into your parent’s eyes in that day,
you’ll just understand their feelings…
it’s so full of proud, so happy, and so thankful…
That is one of the best present that I can give to my mom and my dad..

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