That “Someday” is Today

No matter what you want in life,
you’ve got to take that first step..
Regardless how much metawork we do,
or how much we talk about what we want to accomplish,
in the end, it’s our actions that define whether we fail or succeed.
Take a step, even if it’s a small step..

I remember when I was teenager, that I used to say, “Someday I’ll become that person, someday I’ll get everything that I want, someday, and someday”. Even when I was in college, this “someday things” became part of me also. “Someday I will be rich, someday I’ll go looking for better job, someday I’ll travel the world, etc, etc”..

The truth is, this someday things are growth with me, that make so accustomed that there will be a someday in my life where everything will finally come together. I have to admit it feels good to write today in these new ground rules. Because these someday things are lies, lies, lies… It’s seems almost unfair that at such a young age we buy into these lies and get stuck forever in this fairy tale idea of life.

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The “What Next” Question

A wise man,
is one who after many years of learning,
still able to say “I don’t know”..
Because, life, all life, is about asking questions,
It’s not about knowing answers..

(~Allie Keys – Taken, The Series)

 You see, for me, life can be seen as a series of chapters – stepping stones, opportunities, branches splitting off into a million different directions, big and small decisions. These chapters may have obvious beginnings and ends, and sometimes those definitions are blurred. The key thing to keep in mind is that all segments flow together. Everything falls into place, whether we plan it that way or not.

With all chapters, there are underlying themes. There are questions that come and go with the passage of time. One of the questions that I could never shake was “What comes next?” No matter how far I ran in my life, it kept pace. Wherever I went, it’s like accompany me.

I remember when college graduation came and went, there it was again: “What comes next?” And this time, it wasn’t only my mind asking the question – it felt like the entire world was fixated with what my response would be.

It’s hard to think of it. It seems that I’ve done my part, you know. I did what I have to do. And, what to do next in life? This question is always asked by myself for these few weeks. Especially, when September is coming next, and I’ll celebrate my birthday, and it’s always the month and time where I reflect about my own life.

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I’m Working Overseas in Middle East

It’s like sometimes not knowing,
how crazy you doing something, is a good thing..
You’re just goofing around..
Until someone noticed it, shows up, and says, “Wow”..
And the rest of my life story, is unfolded little by little..



You know, to be honest, somehow I’m still thinking, all of these are “too good to be true”. Yes, surely there are times when I imagined this one before, but it’s just some fantasy or fairy tale that I actually never thouht to became reality. You can see those my previous posts are quite reflecting it.

I still remember, the first time when I want to actually make this happen, and being focus to achieve it. It was 3 months ago, during my Field Break time, I was alone at my room, and I was watching How I Met Your Mother with “Unfinished” episode. It made me look real hard about my lifelong dream and relate with what I’ve achieved on my life so far..

And, at the end of movie, Ted said that,
I know that successful person don’t just live in life. They change it, they shape it, they make their mark upon it, and mark it with amazing result. They never gave up on their dream..

But, you see, that’s not usually how it goes. I mean, usually, it isn’t a speeding bus. Most of the time, it’s just too difficult or too expensive, or too scary. It’s only once you’ve stopped, that you realize how hard it is to start again. So you force yourself not to want it. But it’s always there. And until you achieve it, it will always be…unfinished..

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Opportunity and Choice

Sometimes, opportunity knocks at the strangest times.
Well, I know, it’s not the time that matters,
but how I answer the door.
I mean, our life is defined by our own choice.
Our story may not have such a happy beginning,
but that doesn’t make you, who you are.
It is the rest of your story – who you choose to be…



You see, at every move in our life, we have to choose and proceed. We might like it or not. Life is nothing but a totality of conscious choices that we continuously make. Someone else does not choose for us in our life.

Sometimes we are left with no choice at all but to find ourselves at the crossroad of life, with two paths each beckoning and beguiling us. One is short, well kept, with flowery plants and bushes on both sides, so easy to negotiate, but ending up in a blank wall. The other is long, labyrinthine and bumpy, and difficult to negotiate, but ending up in a vast orchard of fruit-bearing trees and sweet-scented flowers.

For all I understand, where I am today is because of the choices I made in the past. But, Many times, I was at a dilemma just like, “To be, or not to be”, that is the question. It is easier to say this but, I know it isn’t so easy in practice, especially when those opportunities right in front of me.

There are no guarantees..

I don’t really know where a road will lead me until I take it. There are no guarantees. Nobody said that choosing to do the right thing all the time would always lead you to happiness. Loving someone with all your heart does not guarantee that it would be returned. Gaining fame and fortune does not guarantee happiness. Accepting a good word from an influential superior to cut your trip short up the career ladder is not always bad.

I mean, there are too many possible outcomes, which I really cannot control. The only thing I have power over is the decisions that I will make, and how I would act and react to different situations.

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The Lie to Ourselves, Stop It..!!

A man may become master of his destiny,
when he has power to influence his own mind..
If you aren’t doing it,
that means you don’t want it badly enough,
so stop kidding yourself..!!
Actions speak louder than words, definitely..

Are you…
…waiting to get the perfect job?
…waiting to perfect time to ask that cute girl?
…waiting to meet Miss Right?
…waiting to start living your life, on your own terms?
…waiting to an offering before you start the career you really want?
…waiting for someone, somewhere to tell you what’s important for you to do?
…waiting to give you permission to do what you want with your life?
…waiting for someone to take care of you?
…waiting for the great adventure finds you?
…waiting for the magic happens?
…waiting to start living, rather than just existing?

WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR..??

Look, there’s something that I need to get off my chest. I’ve been thinking about this for a while. And I’ve noticed that our habits are the most part that create our life. It’s our habit that are in charge of our life. Because, the things I do every day are pretty much what I did yesterday and perhaps what I’ll do tomorrow.

One of the things that separates us from “having the time we want” is that we constantly, blatantly, and unapologetically lie to ourselves about our scheduling, abilities, and our priorities. I don’t deny I do it myself. And it kills my time, slaughters my schedule, and smashes my plans to tiny little bits.

But in all seriousness, we do lie to ourselves. For example, when you say “I don’t have the time to …”, that’s almost certainly a lie. Since I can walked on this earth and observing other people, I know that nobody operates at 100% efficiency.

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The Harsh Truth of Career

It might not be today, it might not be tomorrow.
Sometimes, it’s hard to hear these things
but, in the end, they make you stronger.
I might not even make it myself,
but I sure as hell ain’t leaving without putting up a fight..


As you see, career means a long term path of what we do that have directions & goals. And the thing is, just like everything else in life, there also some harsh truth that we need to face regarding our career. So, here is some facts that based-on my experience on real world… 🙂

Starts at the bottom

Almost everyone starts at the bottom. Regardless of what you think you deserve, you probably will to. Get over it, and just get started. And the thing is, it’s not enough to be good at what you do. Talent and skill will only take you so far. It’s like video game, more problems solved, the more experience gained, and the more character growth.

Job Hopper Fact

If you find yourself job-hopping, moving from one career to other different career in a short time, and still, nothing ever satisfies you for any period of time, it’s time to look at yourself. Most likely, you’re part of the problem.

Professional growth requires discomfort

Embrace it don’t fight it. There is no learning in the comfort zone. Achieving long-term career goals requires sustained effort and deliberate action. It’s no accident or coincidence. It’s a process that takes time. Sure, it won’t be fun at times, but nothing is. Do you really want to stay where you are and look back at your life in the future and regret not having taken the steps to go after it?

Your career is all about YOU

If you’re unhappy with your career, it’s up to you to change it. Sticking around because you’re afraid will only dig you deeper into the rut. No one else controls your situation. No one else responsible. Stop asking for everyone’s opinion about what you should do. Again, it is all about YOU.

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Learn to Let Go The Uncontrollable

Surely there is a time when you realize that,
it is a time to let some things go..
It’s the moment you realize that all that anger,
and worry just isn’t useful..
And you start to let go of it,
and just enjoying your life…
But, it just takes a while..


Life is constantly changing. But, there comes a point in life when I just get tired of trying to fix everything. I think it’s not giving up. It’s just realizing that I don’t need certain things or certain people and “the drama” they used to bring.

I think, sometimes, what happened in our life, can be so unpredictable, out of our control, and so stressful. But, as you grow older, there are things that you just have to let go, without any complain, and without looking it back. And yes, those things are usually the uncontrollable and the unchangeable, that will remove all the burden that we used to have.

Letting go of the uncontrollable and unchangeable in life is to admit the obvious truth, that I’m not responsible to affect a change or correct a problem which is beyond my competency, power, authority or responsibility.

It is releasing over-responsibility, giving permission to myself to be free from an over-responsible sense of obligation, duty or requirement to make everything “perfect” in my life and the life of others. Somehow, It’s getting rational about what I can and cannot do, becoming realistic about what is and what is not.

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The Art of Challenge

It’s not what you do, it’s why you do it..
It’s not what you see, it’s how you look at it..
It’s not how your life is, it’s how you live it..
Because, just like everything else in life,
with the right attitude, everything will just be easy..



As far as I understand so far, Life is pretty much a big wheel of wants. As we grow older, spinning that wheel will take us on many different challenges. Part of that journey involves an element called “Chance”. But, the truth is, we don’t know what chances or opportunity we’ll encounter during our life. Suffice to say, the real world is a lot more ambiguous. It can be overwhelming, stressful and downright daunting.

And that is the thing that I’m facing right now. You see, since last month, I’ve been handed a new opportunity on my job, which made me not only dealing with technical side, but also to manage, control, and guide the team who execute the task. I know, this is the start of a very independent period for me, one of big chance for myself to grow professionally. This time there’s a new element called big responsibility that has been added to the game.

And, with this chance, it comes the challenge, where I’ve been forced to deal on my edge of incompetence, get out of my comfort zone, scaling my frustrations, tolerate the uncertainty, filter something grey, control my emotions, persuade/influence people without being “bossy”, arguing in a good & respectable manner, learning to prioritize, divide my attention but keep focused on detailed, and surely learning to put my ego at the right time & the right condition.

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OCTG (Oil Country Tubular Goods)

Currently, as GT Engineer, I’ve been assigned for OCTG Implementation & Continuous Improvement Analyst for Oil & Gas Well Exploration. OCTG (Oil Country Tubular Goods) is a group of different families of steel pipes, that used on inside the engineered structures of Oil & Gas Well.

OCTG is designed based on API/ISO Specification or equivalent standard, that involves the definition of all casing and tubing specifications (lengths, diameters, wall thicknesses, steel grades, connection types, etc.) that meet all technical requirements (pressures, temperatures,corrosion resistance, etc.) in the most economically possible way (optimal technical / economical solution), with the final goal of achieving a given production rate of Oil & Gas.

OCTG comprises :

Casing
Casing is the main structural compound of an oil or gas well. The “big” diameter pipes serving as structural retainer for the walls of the well that prevents the whole Well to collapse (Support Wellhead equipment), prevent movements of fluids or gases from one formation to another, isolate the producing horizons and keep out undesired fluids, etc.

Tubing
Tubing is a relatively small-diameter tube that runs into the production casing to serve as a conduit for the passage of oil or gas from the reservoir to the surface. Ends are threaded for special integral-type joints or fitted with couplings and may or may not be upset externally. This type of pipe is placed inside the well and used to produce or to inject fluids (the ones through which the fluids runs).

Drill Pipe
It is a pipe which transmits power by a rotating movement from the ground level to a rotary drilling tool placed at the end of the drill string. pipe used to make the well bore by transmitting power from the surface to a rotary drilling tool.

Connections
“Connections” is a mechanical assembly consisting of either two pins and a coupling in a threaded and coupled connections, or one pin and one box in an integral design. This is an area where much effort is focused in order to minimize the risk, improve the safety factor and put at the minimum the probability of failure of the string elements. Almost all the OCTG material are joined by threaded connections.

Well, I know that I need to learn a lot for now. My life isn’t a race, and to “master” something worthwhile does takes time. Because, even the great artist was first an amateur, right..??

A Reflection of Hope & Effort

Well, currently I’m in a really daring adventure month. Going from one opportunity to another opportunity and from one city to another city. Although I’m enjoying the challenge to experience “selling” my resume to someone else, but now, it strike my mind. Honestly, I just have a feeling that “selling” myself is kind of tough, quite tricky, and also can be brutal.

You know, still I’m a normal guy. That’s why it got me thinking. Between the rejections, the unanswered phone calls or unreturned emails, it’s making me to take it personally, kind of felt giving up altogether, and even worse, assume that they are “right” and I am “wrong” when my efforts go unrewarded.

Now, particularly in the face of rejection, I’m slightly starting to lose faith, and too many “no” sends me running for the bubble bath, where I sit and let the doubt creep in. “Maybe I’m in the wrong business, “Maybe I’m going for a job that’s just way too competitive,” or ” Maybe I’m a total idiot for thinking this would ever work out at all,” I wonder.

But, complaining will just make things worse, right..??

Call me the crazy optimist, but I’d like to think that most of us won’t let a few measly rejections get in the way of pursuing an opportunity that really matters to us, and that there really is room at the top for more than one. If you’re in agreement, then we’ve got to believe in ourselves like never before, rather than feel like a victim of circumstances.

You’ve heard it before, but allow me to repeat this obvious truth: “If I don’t believe in myself, then who will..??” So, now is really not the good time for give up..

I’m writing this article just to renew my confidence, you know..
As a reflection about what I’m going through right now, about my Hope & Effort..
After all, one more “no” is closer to a “yes”, I hope… 🙂