Sometimes, things need to fall apart,
to make way for better things..
The eggs are already broken.
So, let’s make sure,
We get a pretty good omelet out of it..
(~Ted – HIMYM)
“Adulthood” isn’t a tangible thing that people can suddenly possess. There were a time, when I wake up in the morning, it felt like life was out to get me. It seems that my life has veered off its anticipated “track” while everyone else’s is charging ahead. To be honest, it create some inevitable anxiety.
I know that, entering the real world can sometimes feel like stepping into a horribly disappointing surprise party. Surprise! It’s the worst job market in decades. Surprise! It cost a quarter of your paycheck. Surprise! Your favorite artist fantasy lied—about everything. And on it goes..
While it’s easy to project our feelings of anxiety as surprised when others taking a huge step on their life, but maybe that shiny new diamond is just one part of the story. So, I’m kind of realized that there’s just something about my life that I have yet to figure out, and I think it’s a Self-Acceptance.
Since I’ve graduate from college, I lived in various city in this country. At some point, having a chance getting to know lot of people (with different ethnic backgrounds, from different cities and countries, who live at various socioeconomic levels), I begin to understand that everyone basically wants the same things. The way we pursue these desires is where things branch off, but the fundamentals are the same. I can easily notice that, people want validation, love, happiness, fulfillment and hopes for a better future.
What is the purpose of Life..?? I don’t know the answer for that honestly.
What is the purpose of MY LIFE.??
Well this is an entirely different query altogether,
and this question does have an answer.
But, I don’t want to make you boring with my life purpose story.
Instead, I just want to tell you about the perspective..
I guess, the one size fits all reason for me, being here is,
– to learn, to grow in my understanding of myself – .
The lessons I live through are sometimes quite challenging.
I know it’s probably not a revelation that growing-up does have its pains.
But I do understand that there is never any reason for me to be discouraged.
Today’s trials are destined to be tomorrow’s enlightenments.
Difficult situations arise in my experience
to either make me aware of my strengths,
or to inspire me to walk in a new direction…
I find myself feeling overwhelmed by the daunting circumstances in my life.
But, this is the time to stop, take a breath, step back within myself
and just remember that this story I’m living in,
in this moment is far from over yet.
There is indeed much more to come, many more moments to experience.
What I’m going through now is only one scene of a much bigger storyline.
And there will be more to see if I just keep moving. Move through it…
Life’s little stings,
which are meant to motivate my spiritual growth,
don’t usually hurt as bad as we ultimately make it hurt for ourselves
by refusing to let go of the thing that is stinging us.
The pain I’ve suffered will move when I move, when I stop holding onto it.
When I resolve to go forward and actually see how the story I’m living evolves from the mess it may seem to be now…
So, I don’t want to hit the pause during this time,
because I want to watch the rest of the story of my life unfold.
Hope feeds on motion.
So keep it moving, because The story is not over yet…
People are lonely in this world for lots of different reason.
Some people have something in their disposition.
Maybe they were just born too mean,
or maybe they were born too tender…
But, most people are brought to where they are
by circumstance, by calamity, or a broken heart,
or something else happening in their lives
that wasn’t anything they planned on..