When you’ve already grown-up,
have graduated from college & have a stable job,
then, things such as love, serious relationship, and (even) marriage,
slowly starting to appear on the surface that hard to be ignored..
You know, When you’re single, and your friends or people that closed on your life start to get married, every wedding invitation presents a strange moment of self-evaluation. What it’s really asking is, “Where do you see yourself..??” The thing is, at this age, love is not supposed for just another “trial & error”, it just has to be really, really “right”, I mean, “the one”. And, to get that, it’s hard, honestly.. 🙂
Well, I know relationships aren’t easy, they’re “hard work”. It’s about compromise, growing together, and other crap list continued. But if it’s the right person, then it’s gonna be just easy. Looking at her and knowing she’s all I really want out of life, that should be the easiest thing in the world. Because, the best relationships are the ones that just come naturally. Have natural fun, easy, and simple, or uncomplicated. And, if it’s not like that, then it’s just not meant to be..
Because, if it’s too complicated, maybe it means that we don’t connect on fundamental levels. Then, of course there will be “break-up” & “drama” phase. And funny thing about break-up, there is no good way. Sometimes, no matter how hard we try to do the right thing for break-up, there is always one side that have to face & deal with “humiliation”..
The point is, I’ve felt enough for “trial & error” phase. Because, I think I don’t want to just wasting my time, my energy, and of course my heart, to a girl that literally will not meant to be with me. What is the point of climbing a ladder if it’s leaning against “the wrong wall”, right..??
I know that odds are, She’s not gonna magically walk through that door, but this seems as nice a spot as any to just, sit and wait for a while, preparing myself on any side. Right now, I don’t know who she is, or, where or when We will meet. But, I think for the most part in my life, ultimately, I will only see what I want to see, when I’m ready to see it. And that’s all I’m gonna say to this very own subject… 🙂