For all I know, people live much of their lives in uncertainty..
What might happen in a week…a month…a year…
and, so do I…
Since I was a kid, I know life or the future is a puzzle..
Every piece fits together to create who we are, what we do, & how we feel..
Every experience shapes us into who we will eventually become..
That’s why I never judge on people, I think people are complex..
They’re not good or bad just like black or white..
Yeah, I think labels are destructive..
Because, all people have their own fate..
And, as far as I believe,
everything always happens for a reason..
Nothing happens by chance or by means of good or bad luck..
And what happen to me today..??
I am facing fear of moment like I never have before..
A critical moment on my life journey,
when I find myself in an emotional crisis,
that seems to defy every positive thing I’ve embraced..
You could say that it’s fear’s last stand..
It wants to control the situation to “make it turn out right.”
In fact, it’s trying to survive, to be honest..
And the worst part, I feel that I’m facing this utterly alone…
But, maybe, without these small tests,
my life would be like a smoothly paved straight flat road to nowhere,
safe and comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless.
So, sometimes, I’m cheering myself that maybe there is another alternative that I’m just not seeing yet.
I don’t know, but I’m open to the possibilities.
I wondered about my own life,
if I would be able to answer the questions had kept appearing.
I guess, I am looking for certainty, too..